I had to contact you as you left me far to early,,,I cant get used to you not being around///the last time we spol I will never forget...you where just getting out of the car then turned to me and said sorry foe yesterday dad I was in a bad mood ...then you walked away to the chemist...that I remember so well...I dropped you home at that was rhe last time I saw you...I feel so guilty for not popping in on that Monday things might of been different...I lost someone I love so much its killing me inside...mum greaves in her own way ,,but I have nobody to talk to...I still have to think if I am planning anything because you where always there to talk to I have tried so hard to come to terms with the loss of you but I can't.. I drive pass your flat some times but cant pop in...I just wish I know what was going through your mind at the time and why this happened I lost nan and grandad within a year of each other that was very hard at the time ..then we lost Brenda and Peter to cancer...that was very hard but losing you is killing me I have never felt so much pain in all of my life..my so my friend has gone but not forgotten; I love you so much I cant let go ..lkve you always xxx Dad